what if...

I have been praying pretty bold prayers lately. I have felt for two or three years now that a new and excited change was coming to me and my family. Maybe moving to Africa or something, I don't know. Just something BIG! My biggest fear in life is that the Lord's dreams for me and my family will not come true. And my biggest hope in life right now is that they will! ( second biggest hope is to loose twenty pounds, just being real.) So, today something got me thinking about these dreams that the Lord may have for us. What if I want Him to move us to a new city, state, or country and use us in unimaginable ways, but all He wants to use me here. Right now, here, in the life that I am currently living out. When I pray for Him to use me right now, it feels more or less like a demand. I want it SO bad. So, on my way to the doctor this morning, I said one of my pretty demanding prayers about asking His dreams for me to come true. When I got to the doctor's office, and opportunity presented itself for me to be somewhat of an encourager and comforter to someone who was going through a similar hard time that I had recently gone through. After the visit was all said and done, it just made me wonder if all of that was a direct result of that prayer that I had just prayed. Gosh, we see things SOOOO differently than the Lord. I know in my heart that I can be used here, where I am now. I am fully aware that God can do pretty much whatever He wants with me when I am a willing vessel, and I welcome that with open arms. I just have always thought that His BIG dreams for me would be some sort of clear cut BIG change for me and my family. I just don't think of the everyday little things that I do as being BIG dreams that the Lord has for me. But, what if they are? What if.